A somber day...

"Because we do not know when we are going to die, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well and yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number really. How many times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood? An afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you cannot conceive of your life without it? Perhaps 4 .... 5 times more. Perhaps not even that." Taken from Brandon Lee's final interview, while making The Crow

I sit here, saddened and completely at a loss. My day started just like any other Monday, me fighting the sunlight coming through the corner of my window. Hitting the snooze button about 3 times, before finally crawling out of bed and wandering around the house for about 10 min while the cobwebs in my brain get shaken loose. I got dressed went to work and arrived like any other day. 10 min after i show up, my cell phone rings, which for me usually means I'm getting bitched at for something i forgot. My friend Alex was calling, dude he must be calling about the party this weekend.

Me: What's up bro?
Alex: Dude have you checked your email?
Me: No, why?
Alex: I got an email from the Alumni association, Cal Acosta died this weekend... This is the first i hear of it.
Me: what the fuck? are you fucking serious?
Alex: bro check your e-mail, see if your mom has heard anything through the alumni grapevine.
Me: Yea I'll call you back!

I hang up my phone, and instantly scramble to check my yahoo mail. I've since switched my main email to gmail, but my yahoo account is more for all of my alumni association emails, High school, Fraternity, etc. Probably the reason I don't check it as often. I open it up and sure enough its there. my mouth still hasnt closed, and i think i may have not have taken a breath in around 45 seconds. My hand starts shaking as I go to login to Facebook, i remember reading a status update from him last week about Burn Notice. I get to his page and its like reading a goodbye card from over 40 people to him. Of course, i instantly want to know details of what happened, and the journalist in me takes over, i start asking around, trying to get information from anyone who i know would have solid confirmed information.
The next person i speak to is Nick, who had gotten the call in the morning from his cousin. information starts pouring in from all the different sources. The picture is almost crystal clear. except there is one problem, It is a very hard pill to swallow. Not Cal, he was always so happy, he never looked like anything would get to him....
In an effort to not create a biased and or post false information, i will give that information which i know to be certain. Cal was at Sunset Place, there was an incident with his wife(this is still somewhat speculative, but the story has been confirmed by 3 different independent sources), he then walked to the top floor of the parking garage and jumped.... This is all that i will post as i cannot confirm or deny actions i did not witness, and at this point anything else will be hearsay and purely speculative. I do not want to smear anyone in any way shape or form, if someone feels that i have, i want you to know that is not my intention, and please accept my sincerest apologies if you feel that way.
Ultimately, what demons he fought, whether permanent or temporary, only he and God know what they were. I pray for him and his family and cannot express any more emotions than those that his closest friends have already expressed on his page.

"I will always love u bro. U will always be loved and we will meet again one day." - Mike Sotelo
"cal, a piece of heart was broken this afternoon but you will always remain one of my original "big brothers". i love you and will miss you always,"-Jeannine Riesco
"Breaks my heart to hear this kind of news. Hands down the nicest guy I've ever met. My prayers go out to you, your wife, family and friends. Rest in peace." - David Hernandez
"Cal...I love you man..A piece of me has left with you and will never come back." - Rene Barasoain

Their sentiments are exactly how i feel. one of the nicest guys I've ever met, always a smile on his face. I'll miss you big guy, see you on the basketball courts during lunch........